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jillian1117 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 12:15:43 MDT

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Words could never express how much I love you and how bad I miss you. You were so dear to my heart. It's hard to believe that you are no longer here. I never want to forget all of our late night conversations in your bed. I never want to forget all of our trips to Walmart and Food Place. I could continue forever! I cannot believe that you are in Heaven as I type this. How wonderful that must be! I'm sorry that you had to suffer like you did. Sometimes I want to question that...but I've about done all the reasoning that I can. I'll never forget you on your porch swing. What a wonderful memory to have. My Mama has set on your swing in your spot with Noah. She's really settled well with the roll of "Memom." I know that you would be so proud of her. We all miss you something fierce! I wear your ring that you gave me. Reminds me of you.Oh, how I wish you could have held my children and loved on them!! I will tell them about you and your love for us all. I love you, Mom.

Anna-Kate

jillian1117 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 11:57:33 MDT

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My precious little girl, oh how I love you so much!! You are my miracle baby. I find such joy in watching you learn to do and say new things. What a blessing you are to my life. I love our time together during your bath. You are a true woman when it comes to a bath! As soon as I put you in it you grin from ear to ear!! I pray blessings upon your life, sweet girl. My heart's desire is for you to grow up knowing that Jesus loves you and longs to have a personal relationship with you. I look forward to the many memories you and I will make as "mother and daughter." I love you...

Mama

jillian1117 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 11:45:40 MDT

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I cannot begin to express to you how grateful I am to have you as my Mama. You are the most giving Mother I know. You are also an EXCELLENT "MeMom." Mom would be so proud. You are such a giving person and I am thankful that I'm a beneficiary of that sacrifice. Thank you for loving me when I have not been very loveable. Thank you for encouraging me when I was down and about to give up. Thank you for teaching me the values that I still carry today, the same values that I teach my children. Thank you for all that you've done and all that you continue to do in my life. I thank the Lord for you. You are such a strong woman and I long to have your strength. You have the heart to love when everyone else would quit. You have the strength to push forward when most would have already given up. I love you and I'm so proud to be your daughter.

My Sister

jillian1117 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 11:44:45 MDT

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I look back over the years and think about how much our relationship has grown. Boy, what growing up does to us! Ha! There's no more fighting over the phone, friends, or clothes...there's fighting for time. I don't like the fact that we aren't able to see each other as often as we'd like. It's sad how when you live together you fight over petty stuff and then one day you wake up and you're grown. Kind of like the old saying goes "I wish I would have known then what I know now." Regardless of time, miles, or schedules...I love you and I'm so thankful you're my sister.

Noah

jillian1117 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 11:41:20 MDT

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My sweet baby boy!! Oh, what a blessing from God you are. I had longed and waited for you all of my life. You are THE answer to my prayers. I'm so thankful that God placed you in mine and Daddy's arms 2 years ago!! You are the sweetest, most loveable child I've ever seen. I'm grateful for your spirit. I pray blessings on your life. I pray that God will draw you to Himself and that one day, you will trust Jesus as your Lord and Savior. I love you my sweet boy. No matter how old you get, remember that Mommy is here to hold you, laugh with you, wipe your tears, kiss you, sing with you, pray with you, and talk to you. I want you to know that I love our pillow talks that we have and the songs that we sing!! "Wherever you are, near or far, God loves you and I do too!!!"

My Brother

jillian1117 — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:27:50 MDT

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I love you very much. I'm so grateful that the Lord saw fit to give me a brother!! Thank you for listening to the Holy Spirit and for seeking God's direction...I know you are.

Jeremy

jillian1117 — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:27:04 MDT

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The Lord blessed my life with your presense on November 11, 2000. I had no idea that night at Smead Church that God had set up a "Divine Meeting" between you and me. When you and I met there in that altar to talk we should have just said "I do" right then and there!! Ha! I consider it a true act of God that I went home and announced to my family that I knew I'd be with "that preacher from Shady Grove" for the rest of my life!! I'll never forget reading your first email. Oh, how I fell in love! Remember our first date? Man, I could hear you coming a mile away in the "Mazda" LOL!!! You knew I loved YOU and definitely NOT your car!! Isn't it amazing that thing is still going down the road in Sparkman? I remember our first kiss, ahh, I was SOLD!! I'll never forget the first time you told me that you loved me. We'd been dating 8 months, my sister and I had been to see you. You set me down and said those beautiful words that melted my heart into a million pieces!! Remember reading my school work to me in the afternoons, the bike rides, the walks, the love notes...? The night you asked me to marry you was most definitely the MOST romantic night of our dating relationship!! I was so retarded not to have guessed it!! Ha! You are such a romantic man!! The day that we got married was a day I'll never forget. You looked SOOO handsome in your tux! Your vows to me were absolutely beautiful!! Remember us feeding each other cake? Remember you taking my garter off? LOL!! Remember the first month of marriage?? It was a blast! You were out of school for the summer and I got called off of work everyday! We spent 24/7 together!! I remember the day that we said "goodbye" to our home 2 months after marriage to follow God's leading to a new church. I'll never forget how big our new house seemed. It was you and me and no one else. Although we were at a faster pace, our love was never shaken. Thank you for putting me AFTER your relationship with God, but BEFORE your ministry. The 2nd year of marriage I went to nursing school and you dried every tear that fell from my eyes. Thank you for believing in me when I didn't have the confidence to believe in myself. The 3rd year of marriage was hard. We found out we were expecting in July, which was an answer to 22 months of trying, crying, and praying. I remember the joy in your voice when I called to tell you that you were going to be a Daddy!! Oh, and what an awesome Father you are!! Your Grandpa Horton died in October and my Mom died in November. Thank you for letting me "Move" back home for 4 months while I helped take care of Mom. Thank you for driving to come stay with me. Thank you for praying when the family wanted to pray but Pop and Ken couldn't. Thank you for being so strong for me. Thank you for holding me when no words could heal the pain. Thank you for wiping my tears and holding me up when I wanted to fall, Thank you for helping me see that Mom was with Jesus. The joy of our lives entered this world on March 11th, a few months after our loved ones departed to be with Jesus. What a vibrant little boy with a wonderful loving spirit and personality. We both have agreed that the Lord has mighty plans for Noah's life. You are a wonderful, magnificent Father to our children. I know that the lack there of while you were growing up has made you to be a very determined Daddy. Thank you for your love for our children. Noah can't wait for his Daddy to walk thru that door everyday!! What a wonderful blessing!! I LOVE to watch you and Noah play together like you do everyday!! You guys are hilarious!! I think that Anna-Kate has you wrapped around her finger. You are such a sucker for her smiles, laughs, and coos. Especially now that she's saying "DaDa" which I still don't understand that!! You are a true Father and I thank you for allowing Jesus Himself to guide you to lead our children and home. The 4th year of marriage, the Lord called your ministry to Immanuel. I will never forget the fear that I had, considering I was 8 months pregnant and we were talking about moving! I will always remember the "talk" that I had with God that day, and how I got out of my car and never looked back. I had a peace that only HE can give. Thank you, LORD. You are a true, God-called, Preacher. You have an annointing that only God Himself can give. Thank you for listening to Him. Thank you for following Him and leading our home in the way of TRUTH. You are a man who is not afraid of what people may say or think. You are a man who stands for what you believe in no matter the cost. Thank you for helping me grow in my daily walk with Christ. I'm so thankful that you and I are a team. Our most important "goal" for the team is for our children to learn about Jesus and know Him as Savior and Lord. Thank you for your Christ-like example. Thank you for being 'YOU" and for being my lover, my best friend, and my soul mate. I'm so grateful for the years I've had with you and the memories we've made! I'm excited about the future b/c as long as I'm with you...I'll be happy. You are the most absolute wonderful man in the world. You are the definition of "romantic" and "sexy." I love you more everyday. I cherish our sweet pillow talks at night. I love to fall asleep in your arms and know that this love is not a fairytale or a dream. This love is a love that very few people find and I'm so glad to have it with you. I love you...

Daddy

jillian1117 — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:21:29 MDT

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You are the hardest worker that I know. I stand in awe at how hard you can push yourself. You have strength that I desire to have. Thank you for not quitting when I could see that you wanted to. Thank you for always standing up for what is right. I appreciate all of the encouraging talks that you had with me when I lived at home. I'll never forget the famous saying of yours "You are a beautiful and smart girl...I love you." Thank you for being a Father that has shown your children to stand tall, stand firm, stand your ground. I love you, Daddy.